Yep, that basically describes my feelings daily. I am so in love with my twins, my little eagles and I am so terrifed that I won't get to meet them. Little things make me nervous...like registering (which we finally did since the shower is in 2 weeks), talking about the babies, planning for September...and big things like buying a new car. If it were a reasonable thing to do, I would wait until after the babies were here to get a new car just so that we were sure...but that doesn't sound like the best idea and CE found a great deal on a used car which we might be buying tonight. I'm just so worried that we will jinx it. Everything is going well so far. I continue to have braxton hicks contractions throughout the day, especially when I have to pee or stand up suddenly, but otherwise I'm feeling pretty good. And the babies have been great at reassuring me when I need it...I just press my hand on my belly and I am usually rewarded with a little kick.
I know that this fear won't really leave ever, so I'm going to just try to enjoy everyday that I am pregnant and continue to pray for my babies...that we get to meet them in September and that they are healthy and whole. I know that this is another side effect of my previous miscarriage and then the resulting infertility, but that doesn't make it any easier.
On a happier note, I'm almost 26 weeks, which mean only 2 more weeks until the 3rd trimester. Oh yeah, and my belly is huge, which means 2 big babies in there!!
I am sorry you are still scared. I am too somedays - and i know a twin pregnancy just comes with that many more worries. But you are doing fantastic and passing important milestones, so just take it one big milestone at a time - next up 27 weeks! You are doing great :). And at this point, your babies are coming, you get to take them home! It is ok to believe it!
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. Though I'm now at the point where I'm afraid of actually giving birth and suddenly being responsible for 2 infants at once! I think when you are a twin mom there is always so much more to worry about. I hope you can find peace in your worries soon!
ReplyDeleteIt gets better, ever day a little bit better. don't know that it ever goes away completely, but it gets better.
ReplyDeleteI think what you are feeling is completely normal. I have procrastinated on many things preparing for my little one because I was afraid of jinxing his arrival. I literally just finished his nursery and I'm 36 weeks pregnant. Registering was really a big hurdle for me. I think it took me 3 separate visits before I finally gave in and registered. Unfortunately, I think it's just the way it is - considering everything we have been through. Some days are better than others and I try to focus on those! :) Every milestone is one step closer and it sounds like your pregnancy is going great!
ReplyDeleteI can relate! Expecting quads meant preparing early and that scared me after having a miscarriage before. These feelings are normal, but still no fun. You are nearing 28 weeks, which is a huge milestone! Best wishes for you and healthy babies.
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