A New Cycle...

It's been a pretty busy week (which is always a good thing) but I haven't been able to post as much as I would like.  I'm working nights this week so I go in at 5:30pm and get done at 7am.  Then, I spend the day trying to sleep, watching The Office on Netflix, playing with the puppy, taking the puppy outside, training the puppy, doing laundry, and doing Insanity for my daily workout.  So, that's been my week.  I have 2 more nights and then a nice 4 day weekend and I cannot wait to see CJ again.  (Good thing I wasn't ovulating this week because BD'ing would have been difficult.

 

And now for an update on rainbow making.  I went to see the RE on Monday.  He seems really nice and very practical which I really like and he has this great southern accent.  He checked another beta just to confirm that it was indeed a chemical and as expected my beta was down to 2.3, which is now negative (plus AF came later that night, so at least I didn't have to wait long).  Now, I fall into the repeat pregnancy loss category, which is sad, but at least I know I can get pregnant again.  The plan for this cycle is to take a break from Clomid and get an HSG.  I'm currently on CD 3 and I have my HSG scheduled for next Friday (CD 12).  I'm a little nervous because I know that some people say that it really hurts, but I'm just gonna load up on Tylenol and I should be okay.  I'm also hopeful because I know there are a lot of people who have gotten pregnant soon after having an HSG, so I hoping that we finally get lucky (and I mean really lucky this time, like jackpot lucky, not just a little lucky).  I'm a little nervous that I won't ovulate without Clomid though, but I was ovulating before Clomid (just a little late) so I'm hopeful that it will be okay this month.  I have also heard stories about people getting pregnant when they are on a break from Clomid.  Maybe this time I'll be one of those people.  Fingers crossed!!  I think we'll just do Egg Meets Sperm Plan, but I'm gonna try to keep it light and fun for my husband's sake.  I'm gonna try to be positive about this cycle, but also try to feel like I'm on a break (since I technically am).  So, I guess we'll see what happens. 

 

All of that being said, there is a little pressure on this cycle.  This is right around when I conceived last year.  Each month that passes, I'm sad and frustrated, but this cycle may be even harder because a full year has passed and all I have to show for it (baby-wise) is 2 +HPT and 2 losses.  That's a little hard to swallow.  Plus, if it works this cycle, then we won't have to pay the big bucks for treatment (since my insurance only covers testing) and I'll be out of the first trimester by the 1st anniversary of my miscarriage.  I lied.  I don't just have my fingers crossed, but I have been and will also be praying as hard as I can!!  Dear God, please help us to make our rainbow this cycle.