Wednesday, March 28, 2012

11 Weeks!

I never got to say that with my last pregnancy and I am so happy to report that the babies are alive and well.  They both showed us their cute little heartbeats going at about 150 and waved during the super quick scan that my OB did at my first appointment with her yesterday.

Yup, I'm officially seeing an OB.  It's awesome and it's terrifying.  I'm so excited to be this far and yet I know that we still have so far to go.  I just keep repeating the mantra "We are bringing these babies home" because we will and I totally believe in the power of positive thinking!!

As far as symptoms go, I'm still super nauseous all day and really tired all day.  My friends at work say that I'm looking better these days, but I'm not so sure.  Oh yeah and I definitely have a bump.  I can totally hide it in my scrubs (at least I think I'm hiding it), but in my maternity clothes there is a definitely bump and it's getting harder to hide.  My weight yesterday was 142lbs.  My normal weight goes between 130-135 (except for when I dipped down to 125 after my miscarriage), but I'm guessing I was on the higher end of that with IVF so I've probably gained 5-7lbs so far.  My doctor did not seem concerned at all.  She just encouraged me to eat a balanced diet and not to worry about it. 

Today is also a special day because this morning my husband gave me a shot for the last time.  OMG.  I can't believe I'm done with the injections.  After 11 weeks straight of shots and 9 weeks straight of PIO shots, it's crazy that tomorrow morning there will be no needles entering my skin.  Totally crazy.  And it makes me super nervous.  I would almost prefer to keep getting shots because I feel like I'm doing something good for my babies and now I just have to sit back and trust my body to do the right thing.  It's terrifying and totally normal according to my doctor.  When did all of you finish your progesterone supplements?  How did you feel about it? 

Next up, first trimester ultrasound scan next Thursday!!

Friday, March 23, 2012

I'm officially more pregnant than I have ever been...

Today I am 10 weeks and 2 days along.  With my last pregnancy, this is the exact day in the pregnancy when we found out that our angel had stopped growing at 8w5d.  We found out around 1-2pm in the afternoon.  Seeing as it is now 7pm and I'm still nice and knocked up (and the babies were waving at me on the impromtu ultrasound that I just did with cute little fluttering hearbeats), that makes me officially more pregnant that I have ever been.  I definitely feel more pregnant this time around thanks to my expanding abdomen, my sore boobs, and the worsening nausea.  I'm not sure when I'll start feeling confident in this pregnancy, but for now I'm so happy and grateful to be wear I am and to have 2 little eagles growing nice and big and strong inside me (and making their presence known while they're doing so.) 

Happy Friday to everyone and I hope you have a nice relaxing weekend!!  I'm oncall for the next 12 hours...but who's counting?!?

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

10 Weeks!!

I don't have a good excuse for not posting recently.  I've just been having a hard time coming up with something to say, being able to sit at my computer for any length of time, and not being overwhelmed by my anxiety.  Here are some quick updates...

- 10 weeks today and I had my first nurse's visit at the OB's office.  It was just a lot of history questions, height and weight, blood draw, and urine test and completely uneventful, but at least now I can get in to see the OB next week. 

- Graduated from RE last Wednesday at 9 weeks after another ultrasound where the little eagles looked great.  Their growth is right on track, heartbeats beating away, all good.  My doctor then sat down with us and said that given our 3 good ultrasounds he would give us a less than 5% chance of miscarriage at this point.  (And that was 1 week ago)

-With that good news, I finally worked up the nerve to tell my sister and my parents.  We'll really start spreading the news at 12 weeks, but it's nice that my immediate family knows what's going on now.  They are super, super excited!!

- The all-day nausea has continued.  Plus, I vomited for the first time this morning, which was tons of  I've been saying that I would feel better if I just started throwing up and I guess I got my wish.  However...

- I'm still pretty nervous about this pregnancy continuing.  And here's why.  With my last pregnancy, we went in for our appointment at 10 weeks and 2 days and the baby had stopped growing at 8w5d and there was no heartbeat and I'm just terrified that that will happen again.  I'm trying to relax, but it's hard.  Hopefully, at my appointment next week, we'll get to hear the heartbeats and then I'll officially be more pregnant than I have ever been and I can start to relax. 

-My NT Test is scheduled for April 5th and I'll be 12weeks 1 day and I can't wait!!

- Despite my anxiety and fears, I do feel like this pregnancy will continue and I pray everyday that we'll get to bring our little eagles home.

- I'm loving my maternity pants because I have a definite bump now, which is mostly bloating, but hopefully a little bit baby since there are now 2 x 10 week old babies in there!!  I can't wait to keep watching my bump grow bigger!!

I've been trying to read and follow along and comment when I can, but it's been a little harder these days.  Thanks for reading and sticking with me.  Happy Wednesday!!

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Updates from week 8...

So, this week we got to see the little eagles again...but a little early.  My cramping continued and worsened so my RE moved up my appointment to Wednesday afternoon.  I was so worried that we wouldn't see heartbeats again.  BUT, everything looked great and both babies were measuring ahead.  Eagle A was at 8 weeks and 3 days and Eagle B was at 8 weeks and 1 day and I was at 8 weeks exactly so that was perfect.  Everything looked great and she couldn't find a reason for my cramping, but just suggested that I take it easy.  It was so nice to see our little eagles growing bigger with those 2 beautiful flickering heartbeats!!

Yesterday, I ventured out and bought my 1st 2 pairs of maternity pants...ever!  I never needed maternity pants with my last pregnancy because I didn't gain any weight and my waist stayed the same size.  This time around, I have a little bump and I'm sure most of it is weight gain from IVF and my horrible eating habits lately, but I don't really care.  I love my little belly and I love my new pants.  I got a pair of black active wear pants and a pair of skinny jeans.  They are super comfy and will help me get through the next couple of months!

Otherwise, my nausea has continued and really takes a lot out of me, but I love it and I'm so grateful to feel this sick all the time.  It's very reassuring.  Otherwise, I'm still really tired, my boobs are way more sore, and I have to pee all the time...and I'm loving it!!

Next ultrasound is at 9 weeks, next Wednesday and I can't wait!!  Have a nice weekend!!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

8 Weeks!!

Just a quick post today as I hit the 8 week mark.  I took a peak at the little eagles last night since I have access to an ultrasound at work and both had heartbeats and had grown in size (that's about all I can tell.)  My fears have not subsided though because now we are moving into the territory of when we lost our baby last time and when we found out.  I also started having cramps yesterday, which I've heard are pretty normal, but it still freaks me out.  Has anyone else had cramping in early pregnancy and the babies have been fine.  I might even put in a call to my RE, but I have an ultrasound scheduled for Friday.  I'm going to try to take it as easy as possible and relax. 

To my little eagles,  We are so glad that you are hear and causing me so much nausea and exhaustion.  It really helps that you are making your presence known.  Please stick around until we can meet you in person in September.  We love you so much already!!  Daddy is convinced that you are 2 boys, but I don't know what to think yet.  Only time will tell and we will be excited either way.  Can't wait to see you again for an official ultrasound on Friday!!

Monday, March 5, 2012

7w5d...Happy Monday

I can't believe it's been a week since I last posted.  On one hand, it has gone by pretty fast since I was busy traveling to Philly, working, and studying for my big exam on Saturday.  On the other hand, time feels like it is inching by.  After my big test on Saturday, I spent the rest of the weekend hanging out with CJ and watching movies including Breaking Dawn, Thor, and Captain America.  It was a nice, relaxing weekend and it was definitely tough coming back to work today. 

I have a good excuse for not writing more also in that I have been super in all day and night, waves of nausea with occasional retching (no vomiting yet, although I would probably feel better.)  The only thing that makes me feel better is eating, ironically enough, except that when I'm done eating the nausea comes back with a vengeance.  I'm also more exhausted than I have ever been.  I go to bed around 8:30 at night and that's after lying on the couch after eating dinner form 7pm on.  My boobs are also bigger and sore and I have a constant metallic taste in my mouth.  Most of all, I am loving all of these symptoms because it reassures me that the little eagles are doing well.

Oh I forgot my last symptoms, almost paralyzing fear...I'm so scared that we are going to lose these babies.  I don't know how I'm gonna make it through the next month, but the symptoms are definitely helping, so there's that and lots and lots of prayers!!

As far as I know, the little eagles are doing well.  I took a sneak peak on the ultrasound on Saturday and they had both grown and their heartbeats were flickering away.  My next real ultrasound is on Friday and I can't wait!!

Thank you to all of my wonderful commenters and followers!  I'm at 49 followers, which is awesome!!  I have been reading and trying to follow along, but it's harder now with how I'm feeling.