Friday, May 3, 2013

Dropping my babies off...

Today, I dropped off my kids at day care.  Usually, CJ does this on his way to work even though the day care is right next to the hospital.  I didn't have to be at work until a little later and we were all running late today so I volunteered to take the kids so CJ could be at work almost on time and I would still be on time.  I do drop them off from time to time, but I really don't like it.  I love, love, love picking them up from day care.  I get so excited about it and then when I walk in there turn to look at me and are all smiles and it is the best feeling in the whole world.  Those first hugs and kisses and smiles after a day apart are so wonderful!!

Dropping them off is another story for me.  For the babies, it's a good thing.  They are very happy at school.  The teachers are awesome and take wonderful care of my babies and the babies get to do lots of fun and different activities then they would at home.  For me, it's hard.  I have to take them out of their car seats give them kisses and say goodbye.  I miss them with an aching, yearning kind of pain.  I guess that's what makes picking them up so special.

I always seem to have lots of thoughts about being a working mom spiraling around in my head.  I know that I not only want to continue to work, but I need to in order to pay off my loans and support my family (CJ is working too, but I am and will be the breadwinner in our family.)  That being said, my career is definitely not my priority.  I will always work really hard when I'm at work, but my priority is and will be my family.  The nice is that in a couple of years I may have the option to drop down to 95% or 80% which would allow me a lot more time at home.  The other really good thing that working does is it allows me to really enjoy and treasure the time that I do have at home with my family and it helps me to be more productive when I'm away from them or when the babies are sleeping so that I can maximize my time with them.  I love mornings with the babies!  Yes, the day does start out at 5am usually, but its filled with music (currently the babies like Philip Philips "Home," The Indigo Girls, Mumford and Sons, Zac Brown Band, and Taylor Swift, but sometimes I also let me husband picking out the morning Spotify station), lots of smiles, a big ole diaper change (they are in size 4's now,) getting them dressed (I pick out their outfits everyday,) nursing the twins, and playtime on the mat or in their jumpers.  It's so fun and the babies are so happy!!  It's great family time.  Then, I run out to work.  Evenings are also fun with walks or dinners out followed by bath time and my daughter nursing to sleep around 7-7:30 while my sons jumps and plays like crazy followed by my son nursing to sleep around 7:45-8:15.  The days pass by in a blink of an eye!

In conclusion, it is hard being a working mom, but I know that it is equally hard being a stay at home mom.  It's working for us right now.  I don't feel like I'm missing out on my kids growing up since I feel like I'm there for all the important stuff, but I do really, really miss them during the days.  I think it's something that I'm going to have to continue to re-evaluate and I like that I may have the option of working less in the future.

Those are just some of my rambling thoughts today.  Speaking of today, the babies turn 7 months old today. How did that happen??  I will try to update on their overall growth and development later!!  Maybe during my next pumping break.  See you then!!

Happy Friday!!

1 comment:

  1. I can completely relate to all of this! I do both drop off and pick up, and have to agree that picking up is so much more fun! Mine are only 3 months and just starting to act like they recognize me so I can only imagine how much more rewarding it will be when they get older and seem more excited to see me. And yes, I have come to really enjoy our mornings as well. Even though I too get up at 5am there's just something special about that time of day - when they are oh so cute with their half-sleepy smiles :)