Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Not my happy thanksgiving ending...

Well, i won't get to be like Addison and test on Thanksgiving Day.  Nope, thanks to AF's arrival today, I don't get my happy Thanksgiving ending.  This sucks and it hurts so much.  I felt so much more confident this time around and our timing was perfect.  But it wasn't meant to be.  What it does mean for me is that I'm so thankful that I started seeing a therapist who specializes in infertility.  she's great.  I've only had one appointment, but I definitely think that this is going to help and I'm kinda kicking myself for not going earlier.  It also means that I am so sad today.  It sucks cause I'm at work now fighting back tears and just wishing that this had been our month. 
The good news is that CJ is onboard for more treatments. He is so awesome, really!!  I thought he would come home and say well we said that this was the last one, so now we're done and it was pretty much the opposite of that.  I'm actually going to talk to my doctor about either another IUI or moving onto IVF.  so, at least we are going to keep going with treatments which I'm excited about. 
This is kinda a rambling, disjointed post, but that's how I'm feeling right now.  I'm sad, lonely, frustrated, and still a little hopeful for the future.  I really do believe that this is a question of when not if and I just need to be patient.  See, I'm already learning something from my therapist.
I hope you all have a wonderful thanksgiving. 


  1. I'm so sorry hun. You had such a good attitude and everything. :( How disappointing.
    I'm glad that CJ is onboard for more treatments. I hope that you are celebrating a positive test very soon.

  2. sorry. I happy to hear you are trying to see anything positive in a failed's so hard. At least you get more cycles...yay! I really do believe this will happen for you. Happy thanksgiving, AJ! Thinking of you! Xoxo

  3. I'm so sorry :( You will get your Addison moment someday soon! I would definitely look into IVF, but of course Im partial to that because that's how we got our miracle. Try to have a happy thanksgiving! :)