Thursday, March 14, 2013

I miss my kiddos...

Yea, so this week pretty much sucked at work.  The hours were just awful.  I got home at 6:30 on Monday (and got to see the kids awake, which was awesome!!), 9:00pm on Tuesday (in time for the dream feed only), 7:00pm on Wednesday (rushed out of the hospital only to find out that both kids were fast asleep before I made it home), 9:00pm on Thursday (in time for the dream feed).  Now, I'm back at work having been called in because of a couple emergent cases.  I can't complain at work so I'm going to vent here.

I'm tired of working and the long hours.

I miss my babies, desperately at times

I miss my husband (although I have hung out with him in the evenings)

I'm post-call tomorrow and my plan was to spend the whole day with the babies, but now that I'm going to be working all night, I will probably have CJ bring them to day care so that I can sleep for a couple of hours and then I'll hurry over there and pick them up.  Did I mention how tired I am??

I'm also pretty burnt out.  I'm a little over 100 days away from completing my residency.  Then I will be starting a fellowship, so the end is not really in sight yet and I'm just super, super sad that I don't have more time to hang out with CJ and the twins.  I know that I choose this career path, but it's a long road with little reward at this point.

The bonus to be up at night at work is that I just pumped like 10+ ounces in about 10 minutes!!  The twins are drinking a little less these days now that they are eating some solids so we have a surplus of milk.  Seriously, most of our freezer is breast milk and I can't tell you how proud I am with every bag of milk that I freeze.  CJ is so proud of me too, which makes it so awesome!!

And speaking of breastfeeding and pumping.  I don't think that I'm going to be ready to be done at 6 months.  No, I know that I will not be ready to stop at that point.  I love nursing the twins in the mornings and for the dream feeds and on the weekends.  It's such an awesome bonding experience.

That being said, I'm going to Florida for a conference at the beginning of April.  If anyone has any tips on flying with breast milk, please share!!  I will probably have about 120-130 ounces to transport back (I had 96 ounces from our ski weekend away in January and that was just Friday night until Sunday night and this will be Friday night until Monday night.)  I'm going to just do it as a carry on with refrigerated milk, but I'm worried about keeping it cool and what kind of cooler should I use????

Okay, that was a lot.  Back to work.  Good night!


  1. Oh, this sounds so hard!! I hope you're able to find time to rest and enjoy your family.

  2. I'm so sorry you're not getting to see the Eagles very often! Now that my boys are starting to get interesting I find myself missing them while I'm at work too. Great job on the BFing!

  3. I don't know what I would do if I had to spend all that time at work. This makes me sad for you. Hopefully you get lots of cuddles and kisses during the time you are with them.

  4. Huge Hugs on not getting to see the twins nearly as much as you would like. As far as storing the breastmilk I am not sure how long it will last just refridgerated. Are you planning on freezing it before flying/travelling? I know my girlfriend used 6-pack size coolers and ice bricks for the actual flight but more the worry would be that you can't refreeze it after. Would you like me to try and get some information for you?