After 2 days of cramping, I started spotting today and I'm sure AF will make her appearance momentarily. I'm pretty bummed. The cramps were helpful because I knew she was coming so I didn't get my hopes up, but I was hoping for a Christmas miracle of our own. A miracle that would bring us a baby in 9 months, save us more than $20K, bring us so much hope and happiness going into the New Year, and so much more. I'm trying to pray more and one phrase that has been on repeat in my head is 'not my plan, but yours (God's)' and I am trying to sit back and let God's plan happen, but I was kinda hoping his plan was for us to get pregnant on our own on the eve of starting IVF. It just wasn't meant to be.
Now, I'm trying to get excited about IVF, but I need some time to get over yet another BFN and another arrival of AF.
Note: AF arrived the exact same time last year, 2 days after Christmas. I really hate her!!