The good news is that I'm doing much better than I was on Tuesday and Wednesday. I over my failed Christmas miracle and I am full-on excited for IVF. Today will be day #3 of BCP and Cipro (which is wrecking havok with my GI tract.) I even have a widget on my phone that is counting down until January 9th at 3:30pm when we go in for my baseline scan and blood work and if all goes well, then I will start stims on the 14th. It's so soon and so far away, but we have a lot planned in the next 2 weeks so I'm sure that it will do quickly!!
I have realized a couple of things this week. Despite the fact that I was only able to get pregnant in 2010 and then lost that baby and then was unable to get pregnant in 2011, I am so much happier this year over the holidays than I was last year. I really think that I am healing and I have my wonderful husband, my therapist, and my awesome followers (thank you so much for your wonderful comments.) Who knows what 2012 will bring, but I'm excited!!
I am also so extremely grateful that we will be able to do IVF. It's ridiculously expensive and we will be draining our savings account and taking out a $10K loan, but we are able to do it and I'm so thankful for that.
Hurry up 2012!! I'm so excited to see what the year brings!!